Boy is my home neat! That's what happens when I spend too much time
here. Even my "clutter" is organized and neatly piled. This place
looks really settled now. I love it. I tried to picture where I am at in
my life and saw a picture of a train on a turn table. OK. That's a
pretty good picture. I'm not actually going anywhere right now, but I am
willing to go whatever way God wants. This is one of those times I am
simply living by rote...which is what good habits allow room for. I just
put one foot in front of the other and do little things each day to
keep life manageable. I prefer the time when I am creative, but I don't
put maintenance in last place. Without it there would be no order in my
life. It's just dull; that's all...so right now I imagine I am rather
dull.
"How are you today?"
"Dull, thank you. And you?"
Have
you ever noticed that bored people are boring to relate to? So it
follows that I will be dull for a bit until I get into something
creative once again.
What's nice about all of this is that for me to
be bored is a luxury. I used to have knots to untie and tons to sort
through. Now that's done. I'm in a "Huh?" place. There is no instruction
manual with this life we give ourselves. I have spent many years
sorting out what I didn't want and saying no to that. I found things I
liked to do and have done them. Now my life appears to be in a wash,
rinse, repeat mode. I'll practice that for a while, but I KNOW I will
have to find something to learn or create. It's in my genes. (Thank you,
Dad!) Waiting, though, is also a strong point of mine. (Thank you,
Mom!)
It's a special joy to report that I am in a place that allows
me to look at my past and pick out all of the pretty things to cherish.
The other stuff? That's what forgiveness is for.
